I feel alone.
Now, most families enjoy spending time together. Not my family. My typical day goes like... School. Home. Father leaves. Mother and I are happy. Now please tell me this isn't normal? I guess I should start way back a few years ago. 2009 I think. My mother had started getting problems with her foot. And being a mail carrier, having a bad foot doesn't exactly go down well... So, she retired at 44? 45 maybe? Around there. Not sure. That's when my father started... well, he started acting like a jerk, saying this in a lack of a better definition. So, she gets a certain amount of money per month, and as the years have gone on, it's decreased. My father got fired last October. Ever since then, he acts like he's a 21 year old. This meaning, at LEAST once a week he goes to the Casino to gamble. Blows, A LOT of money. You'd think he'd want to spend time with people who actually love him, but no, money is better. This angers me deeply because whenever my mother and I buy something, he comes up with a smart ass remark like, "You're blowing all our money again." Like... Really? You can't say that when you waste all your fucking money on the Casino. This isn't all he does, an example of bullying, well I don't think you need to know an example, I think we've all been bullied once or twice at least. But it really fucking hurts when your own FATHER does it. Like one time, I was eating a pop tart and doing my homework [keep in mind I'm overweight, but then again my whole family is.] and he was like "That's a good way to keep your figure." I looked at him thinking, 'are you fucking kidding me right now?' and I replied with "Ha, you out of all people are going to say that to me. Very sweet." Do your parents do that? Well they might, but the majority of parents don't bully their own children. And what REALLY ticks me off is that no one is supposed to judge anyone, and my father judges everyone as if he's God's perfect gift.
I don't know what to do anymore, I'm reaching a breaking point and I don't know what to do about it. If you read this, thank you. <3 I don't think anyone actually just but whatever. Excuse my language. <3
-Sammi

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